Post by Maria on Dec 4, 2012 21:52:53 GMT -5
Hey you guys. I just got a message from Serenity.If anyone sees this and doesn't hate me, this is... me. Ummm me. Ummm Sere. Ummm... this is hard to explain. Ummm... my parents have sort of... ummm banned me from sites. And set a limit on my internet time. And, well, have this thing set up on the computer that tracks which sites I go on. Because they don't want me RPing anymore. ): And I haven't. For a really long time. And, they know the password to my email. So I can't send any incriminating emails or else they'll do something worse and like not allow me to go on the internet without having one of them peering over my shoulder. And I'm really sorry. Really, really sorry. I hate that I left. I hate that I haven't been able to tell you guys. I hate that you probably hate me by now. I hate me.
Ummm. And this is from the school's computer. I go to school now, yeah. They ban sites like proboards and basically all forums (I've tried getting there and it doesn't work) but they don't ban piratepad. So, I've been trying to decide whether or not I should try to contact you guys. Because (and I hope you understand and don't blame me for this) I didn't want you to remember me as I am, banned from so many things that mean so much to me and just a stupid little girl. I wanted you to remember me as a happy, open, compassionate person who loved writing and people and writing with people. But I guess I was weak. I wanted (want) you to know that it wasn't my fault and I would never have left if I wasn't forced to. I didn't want you to blame me. But I wouldn't blame you if you did blame me. So. Ummm. Blame away. But please don't let this like kill your opinion of people like me. Honestly, I loved you guys! And I loved RPing, and I loved talking with people who didn't judge. I loved connecting. You all... everything in the RPing world meant so much to me. But I can't anymore.
And. Ummm. Anyways, thanks for reading this. If anyone does read this. If someone reads this and knows who I am, would you mind just telling a few people that I know as friends? Like Maria and Jazzy and Dee and Aries and Ana and Heather and Win and Lilli and Travis and Ina and... yeah. Just... if you don't mind, and can, could you tell them that I'm not dead and I miss them like crazy but my parents have banned me so I can't RP anymore? Ummm if you do thanks. And I think that's all. I only have one period with computer time at school, but for what it's worth if anyone wants to talk or anything I'll probably be on my piratepad or someone else's piratepad from 7:45 to 8:30 PM EST. That's all. Gods, I miss you all. Please don't hate me.
I miss you like crazy, Serenity! <3
