Post by Novera Depp on Apr 11, 2012 12:20:43 GMT -5
Novera Depp
Pain, without love. Pain, 'can't get enough.
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To describe Novera in one word would depend on your opinion. To those who don't know her well, that word might be ''overemotional'' and maybe even ''fake''. Some people who know her--Like, BFF know her--would most likely say that the one word is ''strong''.
Novera fights suicide on a daily basis. She feels so unloved all the time. From her childhood she learned to put a cork on your feelings and just ignore them, so from that she will sometimes just sob uncontrollably from all the feelings. But she is strong in the sense that she doesn't give up. She tries to ignore that taunting and the want for death by pushing on through life. She has talked herself out of suicide more times than she can count and will probably need to talk herself out of it many more times in the future.
Novera cuts her arms, too. She feels the physical pain and it distracts her from the mental pain, then the throbbing after wards seems to let her know that she is connected to the earth. She doesn't exactly enjoy pain, but she prefers pain over feeling nothing. Emotions make you human; humans where put on the earth for a reason. Long story short, Novera needs to be reminded that she was put here for a reason.
She is fake in the fact that she will put on a face to keep you from seeing the pain, but her eyes are never filled with cheer. Novera seems to cry out in pain with nothing but her eyes. Physical or mental, you can always see the emotion in her eyes. The reason she tries to hide her pain is because of her insecurity. Novera always tries to show the world that she is perfect. But she is far from it.
Friends are her hopes, dreams, wishes, ect. She has been let down many times before, so she is hard to trust, but once you get her to trust you she will treat you like gold. She feels so, so very happy. So elated. Nothing can bring her down when she is with a friend.
Currently her relationships are:
Pain, I like it rough 'cause I'd rather feel pain then nothing at all.
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